I figure that when someone gets “lucky” enough, to be in a relationship with a significant other. Soul mate, best friend, eventually marriage, I suppose. Their is this bourdon that is placed upon being in “love” which is every annoying, problematic argumentative unresolved situations that tag along within any type of relationship.
I have trouble connecting, showing or wanting attention.. Form whoever I feel attracted too, I do! But then everyone around me tells me that I have the balls to say what’s on my mind. That I’m “weird” or “I’m to much to handle”
But we’re all talking crap about each others backs all the time!!
Insincerely yours truly of course!
I’ve learned about the differences between what infatuation means and what it means to be with someone and be that in love… Conclusion, it’s not that I wouldn’t mind being with someone.. However I can’t be tamed and worry about someone else’s emotions!! I can’t it’s probably because I am selfish and I wouldn’t be able to handle a broken heart because knowing myself well enough..
I’m not so good with crying and hugging.
Their is so much to look forward to that I’m no longer caring to find love but gracefully show it in other ways with acquaintances I’ve stumbled and have met and still am.. But I rather be a free bird!!
Knowing that you’re not alone even if you believe you are. Playing with the times being abandon is a strength motivator. It allows you to not be in the crowd but see the crowd outside it’s circle.. You know, I use tell myself that regardless whether I’m in a relationship or not. I see everybody’s sad faces go through it at the same time I’m facing reality as well, let alone hear about it!!
love is caring and being there for a friend or family. Having moral support with a broken hearted and just loving the fact we can have minimal conversation is enough itself.. But enough is never enough to some. I can finally say that because I finally got rid of my bad habits and bad intentions I was seeking.
Are we saints or are we sinners? Does it matter? We should stop pretending to be something we’re not and stop pointing fingers because in the end we’re all the same. #JournalBlog